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Hello there! :D Zeeena here, also known as Zina to my friends! :D Singapore.I like tissue paper but I'm not a fan of sausages. I LOVE Mexx (He's a dog!). FOOD IS MY PASSION! AND NO I LIVE TO EAT, Not eat to live. It goes on. Your here Hope you guys and girls be a foodie like me too! :D Do take note of the height constraint of this section! |
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wasn't satisfied with my previous post, i dont know? Maybe it was the pictures!VICTORIA THEATRE CLOSING! :( opening on 2013! AND I GOING TO TAKE PART IN THEIR PHOTO COMPETITION! ^^ (Y) (Y) only $5 so i just join! ^^ for funnnnnnnn~ MAYBE I WOULD GET RECONGNIZEDDDDDDDD, and get SCHOLORSHIP -.-' okay think too far -.-' ANYWAYS I M STILL FREAKING EXCITEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD~~ i mean i just wanna go there and see, it's been a longggggggg time i went there ^^ AND MEANS I CAN SPEND MORE TIME WITH GODMAMA (Y)! if this friday soandso not going out with me, but her cliqueee-y, THEN I TELL GODMA SO THERE ^^ and take prettypretty PHOTOS ^^ (Y)(Y)(Y) I M REALLY BLESSED, to start the day, SMILING ^^ thinking of getting FOCUS lens still ^^ not to camwhore like some people acutally ALOT OF PEOPLE, :( :( :( :( i m rather dissappointed when people do that. i know you bought the camera and all, BUT It's NOT PREFORMING IT's BEST ABILITIES :( :( "dont stop dont stop, telling me good night"  Some people just dont know you yet.
Havent been blogging for a week now ^^BEEN CRAZY like HEAVEN ^^ it's good that you're busy actually, it means you're spending time wisely ^^ anywho, TMR IS WEDNESDAY OMGOMGOMG^^
 i've been trying really hard to save up for WEDNESDAY ($20!), me and AC that is ^^ for so&so. So&so better likes what me and AC is making for her, or else, i'm gonna KACHAO her head, ^^ so&so havent confirm me about friday :( SHE BETTER MAKE her desicion fast if not i going out with my godma already ^^ i felt REALLYYYYYYY mean to decline my godma for dinner cos i reserved the entire day to soandso, and yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. And today i asked, she couldnt give me definate answer. OH WELL. NOTE TO SELF: I still owe CUTEEEEEEEEEEE $2.50 from the taxi fair. (Y)? NOT :( i still need to save money for FLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA on 17APRIL2010, FLEAFLYFLOFUN! ^^ at SINGAPORE FLYER THERE, nearby, next door or smth, ^^ will double confirmmmmmmmm! ^^ ANYWAYS, 17APRIL IS ONE CRAZY DAY, let me tell you WHYYYYYYYY! FLEA DAY Guitar Competition (i think?) BAND thingy! THE FUSION THINGY. GB the A&D Ceremony. LOOK AT THAT MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN! ^^ so cool right! ^^ I M GOING FOR FLEAAAAA! ^^ cos you know whyyyyy! I M OFFICALLY IN  WITH FLEAAAS ^^(as in flea market!)  i bought another singlet ^^ and acid/thai dye shirt on last sat's fleaaaa ^^ OMGGGGGGGG can't wait for TMR &17th! ^^ and THIS FRIDAY NIGHT WITH GODMA (Y)(Y)(Y)  MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER
in a very very very bad mood, super angry, yet super sad.I wanna run away from my house, to leave everything behind, and bring everyone i love with me, so that i can live in peace, and love, not like that stupid monster in my house that's intruding my life. I've been so patient with her, hoping she will change for the better, to make me stop worrying about her, and myself. What am i gonna do when the guy leaves? who's gonna pay for everything, who gonna provide, even simple things like food on the table. not even education for me would be important anymore. i wanna run away from everything, but i can't, i can't leave my mom there, i know i can't GOD said that i have to honour my parents, and i only have one, which all the more i have to honour her. but it's so hard to love sometimes, i wanna run away all the time, but i dont want to burden for others, i look strong and ready on the outside, but inside, it's all hurting, all broken, all painful and sore. Setbacks after setbacks, i dont want to do this anymore. MOM, PLEASE WAKE UP and dont be so oblivious to everything going on.  Broke :/
Hey cow cow!Today was quite horrible, firstly in school i kinda of like missed talking to people and stuff like that, and we had two sciences in a row, which actually wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. Uhh, 2April is comming up! SPECIAL DAY ^^ (Y) It's GOOD FRIDAY, (HA!) I'm technically broke right now :( I owe, Wh $4.50 for taxi, 60cents to Michelle, i have to save $20 for so-and-so. && THIS SATURDAY'S FLEAAAAAAAAAAAAA :( :( I WANNA GO AND SPLURGE cos i need clothes badly! Like seriously, some to gross, some to childish, so far i only got a few decent tops. (MY NEW CROPPED TOP #1 now! ^^) and my new SHORTS although i still like my old ones which are soooo seasoneddd ^^ PRETTY PRETTY UH, i HAVE TO SAVE MONEY, if only i had money like toilet rolls like this!  i would like to emphasis that not having money is NOT the end of the world. BUT money is important in your life. SO YES, please worry if you're tight on cash now. WITH ALLLLLLLLL MY LOVE, "all the love the world has to offer, i offer to you"  La Dey! ^^
Hey cow mate-os! ^^  We bought Cara's sticky sweets (ROCKY!), and a DAMM CUTE camera bag thingy ^^ so pretty, i wanted one too! But anyways i'm sastified with my pretty cropped top! ^^ and and and i FINALLY MANAGED TO FIND A SHORTS that fits me! WOO~ marks&spencer's rocks ttm now :/ although the clothes are pretty auntie-ish. But who cares! ^^ AHH so happy now, so blissful, but i have a tons of things to do! Maths hmwk! Due tmr, Lit Essay, hopefully can do by tmr but its due on friday. Chemistry, ahhh :( chinese Zuo ye, by next chinese lesson. NEHHHHHHHH. IDL hmwk, but i love school cos i get to see my pretty pretty friends <3 ohohoh, FLEA at YOUTH SCAPE/SKATE PARK! ^^ Somerset i think. @3-10pm i think. 150 stalls OMG! and and and there's gonnna be SO MANY PRETTY CLOTHES, so gogogo! AND MY GODMA DAY! ^^ next weddddddddnesday is gonna be exciting ^^ (Y) ALLISON KNOW WHYS. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ have to start saving money now! ^^  Chilly weather, Layering clothes = PrettyPretty ^^
Waked(woke) up while it was raining outside, ^^ It's saturday today! && school is starting on Monday -.-' Now i m not looking forward to it, my holiday has been so crapped up, disorganized and untidy! :( :( :( Half of my holidays are goneeee due to camp! I guess i just gonna make do and have fun today! ^^  Hoping that i can drop by Clarke Quay for the flea still ^^ although i'm freakking busy! ^^ And once i have gone there i need to go to church ^^ which I AM LOOKING FORWARDDD too! ^^ And lastly BUT NOT LEAST! Meet my godma at night for nicenice dinner and fetch mexx homeeee! (godma's place!) If it keeps raining! I can wear very pretty clothes, i just hope tmr isnt HOT! cos you know after a hugeeeeeeeee storm, it's FREAKING HOT, and you just start sweating by watching tv! ^^ OH WELLL, ^^  Dinner with GODMA @Vivo tonight ^^
Hello COW MATES ^^ This is for you cow mates ^^ have fun with grass k. Hey cows mates (again), i'm rather excited for tonight! ^^ Cos i'm gonna have DINNER DATE with my godmaaaaa, havent seen her in a VERYVERYVERY long time, i mean the last time was sat :( :( IDL, I MISS VERY BADLY! & i miss twinnn, and i miss GB friends, && my classmates. UHHH, i'm finding it so dreadful espcially during short holidays, when you're like CRAMMPPED with hmwk and you simply can't be bothered to do anything. RAH! >:( Anywho anyhow, TMR IS THE FLEA! (Do i hear a "Hooray?") I hope i can go, although i have so much going on. RAH I FOUND THIS ADORABLE PICTURES of DOGS ^^ Dogs are my bestie FARM FRIENDS! ^^  this is toy yo.   ULTIMATE AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! COCKED UP COMPUTER
My computer is soo coruppted! :( :( It's lagging like crazy, and and there's all this font sizes problem, unable to upload photos, and stuff like that, i beginning to feel it's virus or smth. OH please dont let it be virus! I'm SCARED of them, it's CRAZY, i mean Trojan is alright, but once it's those wormmy wormy ones. It's kills your whole damm computer!Anyways, i m trying to post a new post, so that my previous post won't be right on top, and look so oblang there. Cos the font's like UHHHH. Anyways, i am still thinking of going out for my photoshoot tmr! ^^ Saturday there's A FLEAAAAAA! ^^ FLEA FLY FLO FUN!
@ Home Club (Clarke Quay!) 20March 2010 on Saturday! 2pm-8.30pm (i think!) this flea is really worth going! ^^  Attempts that never suceed.
It's wednesday today, i just realise that half of my holiday is gone due to camp. BIG SHOCKER. (yeah right) Anyways, for a moment i thought i saw Amanda (LOVEEE!) Being online on msn, then when i clicked on it, i clearly stated she was offline, and then on fb, it showedd as green in colour and started to talk, but there wasn't any reply, oh well. WHAT A GREAT WAY TO START A DAY DON'T YOU THINK. (i hope loveee recovers soon! ^^) Been praying for her and all. On a lighter note, i am trying to complete 15 of my holiday hmwk by today, which seems kind of impossible, although it's not as bad as it seems (i hope.)  I'M HUNGRY :(  Tiramisu Torte anyone? ^^ No time for you or me.
CAMP IS OVER, didn't have much attachment with my group this year as i totally missed out an entire day of camp, and it kinda sucked, cos i couldn't "click" as well as i did before i left for my learning journey. Oh well. i guess what's done is done.Everyone's so busy, even though it's kinda after camp and i am extremely tired but not willing to sleep as i have so much going on in my mind. LOVE was sick during camp, and i .[] On a lighter note, i think i should sleep now, and maybe continue with my hmwk at night. Oh well. My mind is never stopping, thinking, twice, thrice and a million times. I think i'm just tired, maybe i should go take a nap,  i miss you love, take care! get well soon. I love you veryveryvery the much. Leaving in ten.
People get really realy amused when people with disabilities overcome great obstacles, and i do too. But it's rather demoting dont you think? Like average people like us, have to be "better" then them, since we're "normal" and functionally prefectly well. Take the armstrong guy, he's really cool! I mean, yeahh, i watched videos on him online, and it's really quite an achievement, but still.It's hurts, you demote yourself. and it's like you go into this "sullen" state where you keep thinking about the bad points in you. And you think you're incapable. So many doubts, but so little time :(   Jesus take over my wheel
 I miss you. Caught up with so many things, not even having the time to think.
School is officially killing me right now, the knife's at my throat, threathening every step i go, floating in my mind, the voices that keep repeating (your homework your homework).GIVE ME A DARN BREAK, it's seriously killing me. I stayed up till 1am last night in secret to do my work, i woke up at 5am couldn't stop thinking. In school i was practically exhuasted by all means, tonight an extra two hours of tuition is gonna kill me. I still have a mini essay for literature that is still un-touched. My March Holidays are so packed, i dont even have time to study! :( Sat - Mexx& Godma, Church. Sun- CAMP Mon- CAMP Tue- CAMP. Sleep & bath. Wed- Homework day Thurs- Homework day Friday- Photoshoot day. Sat- FLEA, at Home Club Clarke Quay. Church, Godma. Sun- Tuition, mexx. There isnt any time to study at all! My homework is pilling, stacks and stacks of mountains are forming, not in the world, but right here in my room. I still have bible study test for camp, MATTHEW MARK LUKE JOHN. I forgotten to hand up my F&N hmwk for rushing today, i have to meet teachers in the morning, and so many other things that are taking a number from me. Where is my well deserved break? :/  Just kill me now. Eatable camera.
    http://www.flickr.com/photos/fsumaria/3083145269/ finale product.  Love me like a cow.
I got carried away on the internet today, was supposed to do hmwk and school stuff, but i kinda wandered off and ended up on Ben&Jerry's and yes the ice cream website. I downloaded their Cow cow screen saver ^^ and pretty around the world screen saver too ^^. And their cow cut out, i had mine done just now! And it's called BOBBLE, since it's head bobbles and all.Anyways, on a lighter note. I need time to myself, i want to go this place, where it's just trees after trees, leaves after leaves, and pretty farm animals. Pretty pictures will be taken, nice air to be breathe in, and all the wonders of the world wouldn't seem to matter anymore  I envy those, who gets those things, the pretty figures, where they can wear dresses and short skirts, yeah so what, i'm fat and i'm kinda stuck with it for quite a while now. &it ain't nice for one thing, it's a obstruction, to relationships, to dressing up, to everyday life stuff such as moving one's body around a tiny area, and somehow you would fall, embarrass yourself. This little things, effects a whole lot on the inside, And as i stare out the window, gazing into the meadows*, i see nothing, but a cloud of mist, of beauty and hate.  Oh well, i am stuck here right now, and there's nothing much i can do about it. The pretty dresses and skirts just have to wait, while i attend to other important things. Though, i wouldn't mind a pretty shirt, that's flowly and pretty. ^^ and a pretty shorts, that i wouldn't look fat in. That's all i want for tonight, but. CHC :)
Hey yall, i'm back in church! YEAP can you believe it? :) God's calling! CUTE somehow managed to convince me to go, & i'm really happy that i went. Anyways, i m going this SATURDAY too, and CUTE gonna 'teach' me SCREWED MATHS :/Anyways, CHC was really really good, and praise was THE BEST, it's been a long time i sang so loudly for God. And this was the first time, i didnt care who or what was around, if i sang out of tune or what. I just sang my heart out for God, &that was that. I'm SO HAPPY ^^ Results are back, and as per normal. they are horrendously horrible. ^^ English : - Maths : 20.8 (U GRADE :/) Chinese: Can't rmb probably C5/6 Combined Sciences: Chem, F9 Biology B4/3 Pure Literature : A2 overall! OMGOMGOMG :) Combined Humanities : SS 59/100 (RAH :/) E GEOG 41.2/50 i think? COMBINED A2 (Y) F&N : A2 :) 71.25% You guys probably knew by now, that there is a vast difference in the results, HA, i rock at GEOG and LITERATURE for now. the others are like UHHH :( Oh well, i am just GLAD. & i shall not be complain-cent , cos it's kinda obvious i didnt study REALLY hard for this term :/ "God only helps does who deserves it" So i guess its my fault again! :/ SCREWED IT. Btw, i recently liked Carrie Underwood again! (yes it's like outdated! but i can't help it!) Her songs are so wonderful ^^ and very true, "JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL" is my favourtie :) SAME AS LOVE! (i think.)  "She threw her hands up in the air, Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hands, cos i can't do this on my own, i m(a) gonna let it go, so give me one more chance" |