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so sleep alone tonight
Hello there! :D Zeeena here, also known as Zina to my friends! :D Singapore.I like tissue paper but I'm not a fan of sausages. I LOVE Mexx (He's a dog!). FOOD IS MY PASSION! AND NO I LIVE TO EAT, Not eat to live. It goes on. Your here Hope you guys and girls be a foodie like me too! :D Do take note of the height constraint of this section! |
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As thoughts fill up in my mind,
tears immersed, dripping down like the little platters, that i heard when it was drizzling that day. Flashbacks when through my mind, as i played the tune on my piano, as i thought, about the many things i done, how i could have done better, regrets & guiltiness comes to mind, as i sang along. It feels wonderful when people praise you, some may not look as mature, as they kept their thoughts inside, never expressing it in anyways. Maybe i shouldn't have done this or that, but that's all in the past, we weren't prefect, always wasn't, never going to be, not happening the near future either. Hoping my loved ones go to heaven, dying peacefully, as i sat at my table & wrote, &cried. I'll be in 2013 &watching 2012 laughing.
If the director asked who they left behind, i will"find" him and say Me :))))))))) Get the joke? (:I think 2012 is just another phrase of Earth's development, plates moving Sun rising in opposite directions yeahyeahyeah. In the Bible it stated that no man on Earth will ever know when the Earth is going to end, Only God knows and with his command he can save us or sink us to our death. So just leave your fate in His hands (: Be faithful that's all He ever asked for! (:(: I'm taking my Grade 5 Piano exam next year, really stressed over it. & i dont think i been diligent in practicing my piano and stuff so yeah! I'm going to "ping" now, (: I'll take my upstairs neighbor as a "UHM" to practice harder, since they practice day&night and it drives me nuts.  "Nuts are filled with nutrition" L, Z. Blogshops.
Whoopie guys, i'm back from CCK meet ups with the blogshoppers. and yes, i'm beaten up quite nicely. On the plus side, the things are quite satisfying. (: The girls (blogshopkeepers) were freaking sweet and nice. One of em (esther) even ask me to check the item before i go squabbling on how bad the conditions were. It was really cheap! It's from cotton on, and it's 13bucks. How fabulous. However, what shocks we the fact that the girls are actually plus sized girls. Yeap, and they are selling small tiny clothings on their shop, i think it's pretty cool (: but they are just too nice to critised (:Kinda pissed, cos i'm suppose to get my white cottage blouse today by registered mail. But my mother was sleeping at 11:45am as usual and she just couldnt crawl out of her stupid bed. Such a miserable mother. This week, i'm going to rush and get all my assignments done. Starting with Literature Question 2. I havent recieved my appeal letters from school, probably didnt make it to Medias. Oh well, i dont really mind anyways (: Read Jason Mraz's blog again, he's pretending to be 7. YAY, but i can't act young now. Cause i'm kinda like stuck with assignments and i dont have a valid reason to be young again. HA. Btw, i bought Jason Mraz's new cd! WHOOTS. (: Uploading it into my ipod later (: I love love love love love love life. (: "Life is like staples."
L, Z.   It's raining again.
A nice weather for a heart warming story to be told.
Actually it's freezing cold, so i have my jacket on. My UniQlo jacket (: It's for men, but i simply (L) it (: I like to hear the nice songs of splittering and splashering of rain, it's makes me think most of the time. It's prefect timing to sleep too, and maybe write a story on your blog. Today i vow-ed to change my bedsheets which i did! (: I think my hands are much rougher then my friends simply cause they have maids or mothers to help them do the housework. Well, on the up side it seems like i'm such a nice kid. Which i hope i am, just that i'm really fat, close to obseity. Spluttering rain can be so soothing to the soul, and you just close your eyes and hear the thunder roar pass your ears. Then you see images of people, until your mother comes in and she go : " What are you doing there? I ask you to mop the floor then you sit there ..." You see, when you actually understand a simple concept, something always comes in your way. I straved myself today, too weak to even climb out bed. I was having a hard time changing the bed sheets, firstly i think i'm going to be sick, second i'm having ykw. I think my jacket is so comfy! Maybe i'll bring it today and show it to my godma that i actually wore it, cos she kept repeating that she has never seen me in it before. I wore it a couple of times out, and its a constant companion to me when i'm sleeping and it's freezing cold at night. I heard that Singapore might have flash floods, you see politicans, Singapore is not ALL SAFE AND SOUND. Yes, we're surronded by big islands (I studied history&geog alright.) and apprantly we won't be hit by any "Major disasters". You government people spoke too soon sometimes, the whole world is changing, of course i dont believe it's ending in 2012. It's just another phase of life on Earth. And if we do vanish, So what? I think we have done enough damage to this Earth already.   i remember it now, It's the INCREDIBLES right. It was the only movie that she could watch more then 3 times! How amazing, i'm a MOVIE GO-GOER, seen or movies, ghost (EVEN THOUGH I'm TREFFIED) to comedies. My godma's favourite actress is Meryl Streep, the lady who act in Devil wears prada, Dalmations 101? She's such a good actor! (: MY JACKET IS SO COMFY (: It passes as a cropped jacket! (: alright, the storm is ending and i'm ending as well. "For the love of God, please have mercy." L, Z. God you're so faithful.
God, thank you so much for today.I bet you did that one purpose! Anyways, guys i just had my you know what of the month this morning. At 3am! I had to crawl out of bed, and you know. So I've been cramping ever since and the medicine didn't work. Hurts a little, but i can handle it as usual. I was suppose to have baking class today, but the pastry chef's mother fell sick, and cancelled our lesson. God's will i tell you. Yes even though i missed out on baking wonderful cake, but still i was blessed with time and rest at home. How blissful, God is so faithful. He has his ways, just not according to "our clock". Maybe it was because i was talking to him yesterday before i fell asleep. I bet he heard it, sometimes it just so hard to believe that some one's there listening to you. Because we have relied so much on sight and sounds, even the slightest touch can mean something. Yet, i dont see him or smell him? But thru His ways, i see Him doing miracles on my everyday life. For example today! (: He's so wise yet so silent in his doings. Mexx will go to heaven, and if i could go up there, i probably see Mexx (: and we can spend eternal life together! My godma is going to be there, (: She will be, we'll see moshi too! and moiko! (: and of course God. Recently i keep hearing high pitches sounds in my ear, they hurt alot. It started that day when this guy at Borders had to high frequency ring tone and i heard it which made my ear go "eeeeeeeee". And my brain goes jammed up in it's brainy world. I hope my catus grow bigger! (: it's so small and tiny, couped up in his small little world. It probably will grow bigger when it's "transplanted" into a bigger pot! I dont want it to grow into his big humongous catus with big pointy needles. Just a little bigger will be prefect~ (: I bought another bag online again! UH, what's wrong with me. But i couldnt resist, it's quite nice and only for 10dollars. (did i already mention this before?) I'm meeting that girl at CCK mrt on monday (: YAY! i hope my shirt gets shipped here by wed! I just realised that blogging is so much fun, especially when it's not in Singlish. Singlish makes it so bleah? It's more of understanding language as a common art for everyone. But i dont think anyone is reading my blog though, but whoever is. Thank you so much! (: But I think i'm gg to surprize my godma with smth. She probably can't read it, cos it's wayy too small for her to read (: My internet is not working currently, so i'm using the main computer in my house, which is also my mother's gaming computer, it's has a very nice keyboard, really smooth and sleek! Not like my own which does that tick tock sound everytime you press a button. Oh well, i'm certainly satisfied i have a computer of my own. (Yes! it's all mine :P) And my mother can't say that it was bought with her money, because it wasn't. HA! too bad. Update on my clean-ing of room status: It's almost done! I cleared my closet ytd, and it's all so neat now~ I'm left with the top shelf, and the second "level" of my table. Of course i'm going to vacuum and mop my room later, as you can see long hair girls drop alot of hair. It's like weeeeehoo. Alright ending here, might surf the web while waiting for the pain to stop! "Menstruating can be a joy or a pain,
if you stop menstruating, even means you're pregnant or menopausing. If you're having menstruation now, it's normal or you just lost your baby. So hypocritcal of things." L, Z. Cleaning is extremely satisfying
I know it's sound so old-minded when i put it that way, it's not as though i like cleaning. It's just that you get to Breathe fresh air and the dust-less tables you get. People will then of course complain that it's going to get dirty tmr anyways, so why do you actually take time to clean it? Well, if i put that you are hungry and you eat, but you shit it all out. But you're still hungry tmr, so why bother eating today? Cleared my side table today, it's sparkling clean, and i found my treasures while sorting thru the load of rubbish i collected all this years. The amount of money i threw away today is probably tremendous. But's it's definitely satisfying to see. About cleaning, recently a gang of ants took over my room. Not that i eat here, or eat sweets, but they just come charging on to my table! I tolereated it for a long time, and probably going to find a ant killer of some sort. Not that i'm cruel! It's just that there's too many of them to save and fling them out of the window all the time! There's one on my computer screen now right here ( ) << It's there. For a moment, it's walking away now. Oh well. I'm going to pack my messy closet like what they do in the show change my wardrobe? It's all going to nicely packed away! (: I like clean closets, it's the first thing that greets you when you're dressing up to have a fun night out. If its probably cluttered, you will take a much longer time to choose as you dont excalty know what you have. So good closet are a good thing afterall! (: Btw, i bought something online! OHOHOH. Yeap, it's a long basic white cotton tshirt. (: It's arriving probably on wednesday! It's my first time recieving registered mail, rather excited. (:(: Did i tell you how clean my table is now! (: I'm just gloating about how clean everything is! (: Feather Dusters are so efficent! and you can pick one right up from your old stockings cos they catch all the dust, cobwebs instead of flinging them away into another corner! (: Good idea huh? (: "Cleanaholics. "
L, Z Jason Mraz - A Beautiful Mess
Hey guys! Just wanted to tell yall that i cleared my first level of my table, it's spick and span right now! (: And it's all pretty nice, (: even my cd's are done. clean clean clean. TALKING ABOUT CD's! JASON MRAZ's A beautiful mess new CD is OUT! GOGOGO AND BUY! (: i'm buying mine over the weekends. I simply LOVE him (: Yeap, i said it. I'm not crazy, just secretly on the inside (: Here's a picture of the CD! Go get it at major CD stores! (:  I simply love the graphics on the cd cover, it's so good! (: whoever is doing it, keep up the good work! (: I can't believe i went online just to promote his album! Ha! Simply Love his album. and him! :P Okay guys, ending on yet another quote from me. "Your last freedom is at the time of your birth."
L, Z. Photos from Nikon D40 Part2. 50mm Manual Lens
My new cd holder! Notice the design? (:  Took some time before it cleared up.  Failure attempts.  Purposely fully lighter exposure.  I tried blurring the background.   Godma's credits.  Yeap, that's me. With messy hair do.  Copyrighted all photos to Karen Lim, Zina Ng. Done with Nikon D40 50mm manual lens. Photos from Nikon D40! (Jason Mraz's Nikon D60!)
Sitting.  Butt's up!  Stretch!  Smile for the camera!  Dont you dare touch my toy! (: see his paw? :P  My cute little catus!   Guess what this is and win a prize!  Night Colours.  Was out photohunting and shot this! That guy got a ticket! Opps?  Experimenting the colours contrast with speed and aperture.    Dog who played with Mexx at East Coast Park.  Mexx! (:   Godma's Housing Estate  My godma and i use to play with magnets like these! (COPYRIGHTED!) Idiots copy ideas. Bash yall up!      At my god-sibling's wedding.  This are all taken with Nikon D40 Auto Lens.Copyrights Reserved to Karen Lim& Zina Ng. Street Art.
  I wished Singapore could appreciate more in art, i know there is multiple art school in Singapore. But they dont get the point, people in art don't do well in others. Either there are made that way, or they have no interest. So why do all the art schools in Singapore want all A's for all subjects when it's an art school? Shouldnt you focus on their talents, people who has the passion for art and go thru so much trails and tribulations and once they get out of school you ask them to sign up with MediaCorp? I mean COME ON, mediacorp is like (no offence) boring. Designs ain't up to standard, their dramas are so easily guessed out. Anyone watching the show can guess what going to happen next, and why does that happen? Well, it's just because they people are plain-squared headed. They have to go in a straight line, and never turn around, left right or round about. Yet, i see so many talents out there, who can totally take over the place of the CEO of MediaCorp, i mean COME ON, straight minded people are so straight. It's the turns that creates magnificent art, the ones that end up in the museum? Like Da vinci, the scream, but i dont see any art bloom in singapore in any part of our future. Well, i guess we're just too small for an industry like art to bloom, we dont even have enough people, so we start "collecting" humans around the world. How about that? Well, i'm just pissed. "Meditation shall be my way to peace."
L, Z. Humouristic.
Here's a poem for yall guys;
"He told me i had a mind of a saint, hands of an artist. I was told that i would get married at 26, ironically that date of my birth date. give birth to my first child at 28. Then soon my child would grow, as i grow older into my years. Following on menopause, divorced and tired. Slowly i would die, internally. and i die in my sleep as i have my last nap in the garden." -Z Breaking a record of four.
It's always summer in Singapore all year round. Maybe it's because we're right in the spot of the equator? Probably, that was what we learnt in school. I know it probably sounds dumb, and I'll start ranting on how i hate the idea of being taught that humans are "evolved" from monkeys. I think its quite hysterical to think about, i don't think we are all hairy. Well not as hairy as monkeys i should put it out that. UFOs are like a toy, a toy of mystery. Currently, i like to have some nice steaming porridge to feed my hungry stomach, which however is peculiar about today's dinner. Maybe it was something abt the salty-ness of the mushrooms and chicken? I also imagine our stomach with small little working people who eats the food i eat to keep it alive. Well, it something to do with the enzymes , amylase and a whole load of crap-py stuff which has to do with biology.  Always wondered, if i ever had a talk show. I wonder what it would be called, i mean it's sounds so blandly if i say it like it's the Zina show, like it doesnt sound great. Compared to like Oprah, Ellen, Rachael Ray's. I mean, it does have a ring to it, doesn't it? Well, i think my talk show would featured dogs. And probably the first person i'll bring over to talk is Of course Jason Mraz himself :) I mean, COME ON. :) :) and of course there is gonna be mexx there, the dog, who's SUPER EXTREMELY cute :) and maybe the woman of my life. My godmother! :) Yeap, she's a taker, definately. :)Online shopping is quite a hazard, ha! Firstly, you wont know if the thing's gonna fit until you get it. Normally, for over-sized girls, like me. It's DANGEROUS. well kinda, but i saw this cute white long basic top, which is kinda translusant with a hood at the back, selling for 10dollars. Totally a taker! Problem is, i need a bank account to transfer the money. Which, i in case you havent notice can't have one, since i'm not of age. HA. Actually i could have a ATM card now, but i just can't be bothered to stand in the queue, waiting for the money, and who knows? So maybe, i'll sneak in to my "uncle" for help this time! :) Alright guys, last post. Hugs and kisses for tonight. *This is for Elephant (haha!) You're such an arrogant girl." L, Z. Quoting.
Being quoting a lot from Jason Mraz's Blog.
His quotes are so magnificent, very deep, true meaning of life. After all, i almost have taken him as my idol. (but of course with God first.) Ending with another quote but this time it's from me. "Life is short, eat Desserts first." If it doesn't rot, please dont eat it. -Z
I finished up my geography project for the year, and i guess i did a pretty good job with it, although it's just a mere three pages of thin paper. I just thought of the people that i did research on, which is on the Earthquakes near the Samoa islands. 1,195 people died in total, that's like about the size of my school which is astonishing. I'm pretty much overwhelmed, and tearing, not because of the people. But just that i was dumb enough to rub onion-contaminated fingers into my tired looking eyes.I cooked lunch today, butter makes so much difference when cooking. I rather eat butter as a "oil" then just plain using oil as "oil" in my stir-fries. I had cravings for some salad today, the ones with the red cabbage? And white light creamy sauce, something like those that you can get from kfc. Apparently, the whole world's Kentucky chicken's are nice, except for Singapore's. I have no idea why, but it's true. Ask anyone on the street, I'll tell y'all, it's Definitely true. Weird, i posted three times today, including this post. I'm kinda beat from all the "working" today, i have cravings to buy a nice electric teal-ish colour guitar, How about that? Teal is very sophisticated, some one with high-end classics and posture. Hence, resulting as my favourite colour so far, but it doesnt look nice on Everything. Imgaine yourself in orange all over, you'll be mistaken as a orange on the street! "Waiting for my rocket to come, Mr A-Z" Love, Z. " Dynamo Of Volitian - Freedom Of Choice " -J
I am that i am.
It's the holidays again, and recently, i have been rather busy with school and exams. However, when school stops, everything else comes to a halt. I take forever to sleep at night, as i know there isnt school tmr for another month. I wake up at eight in the morning, stretching like a cat who had just done takuan-me(d)ow. Been thinking of losing my weight again as usual, and i read an article about losing weight. Make your target clear, it's Fat that you want to lose, not water weight. So i was just wondering that my two kilograms of "weight" i lost was purely water weight? Well that doesnt sound optimistic for the days ahead.I read Jason Mraz's blog recently, he's an idol of mine to tell yall the truth, for whoever is reading out there. His life is so interesting, he get to travel of course, since he's a singer and all. But i thought of me, sitting in this lonely isolated room, i was just wondering maybe there is something bigger out there for me? Sighing most of the times this days, i truly believe that when we are born, that is the last time we are free. We soon grow up, go to school, be constrainted and not able to be free. We are squared up in the office, picking up calls from crazy people complaining that their insurance should cover their hospital fees. Hypocrites. Meditating helps, it's not all about staying still and going uhmmm.. Instead it when things are truly being organized in your head, mind and body together as one. And we find out that there is so much to do, and we jump out of daze and spring into action. That's meditation to me. Something not so relaxing as my brain thinks harder, but it's when all three elements of the body, soul and mind come together as one. Something to do with finding your "chi" energy i would say. I wasted two weeks and a day of my holidays so far, my homework is not even near completetion which i actually want all of them done by tmr. I knew that i had to stick to the "first two weeks is holiday homework time" instead of spreading it all out. I'm pretty excited for myJapan trip this December, we're going to ski of course. But with my weight issue, i cant even find pants to fit into my big ass. Which well, i think is very judgemental to many. Apparently they call it the Brazillian Butt, where you butt it full and Firm. But mine is full but flumpy. How about that, it's a brazillian failure ass instead! Just thought i could end today with a quote. "Life Is Short, eat Desserts first." May meditation calm your nerves, -Z TCC!
   Warm asparagous ragout salad  Chilli beef Lasagne  TCC! :D 7/10 To tell you the truth? THE food was wayyyyy better then the drinks they sold. TCC specialize in their coffee and teas! But expectantly the food are so savoury and rich full of flavour. Yet there are not over flavoured. I would not recommend the apple dessert as it is not that good cos it's all SWEET SWEET AND MORRE SWEETNESS :d The Asparaguas dish may sound gross, but weird enough it excelled so well, the mixture of the mushroom sause and the flavourful food. WHICH WAS AWESOME. The Chilli beef is really good, if you can take spicyness. :D Something i should comment was that there is something about their service, they do not know what to recommend their custermors. Also, their air-con is WAY TOO COLD! :O Alright yall, that's all now. Lubs Lubs Z. |